Build These Walls

I'll build up these walls
I 'll keep you away
I'll keep you out
It'll scare you away

I can build up these walls
I can push you away
I can keep you out
Yet you seem to stay

I can fight
I can scream
I can push
Yet still you stay

I'm confused
I'm unprepared
I'm at a lose for words
How can you do what you do to me?

I built up these walls
To keep all away
To keep me safe
To scare everyone away

Yet your still here
You haven't run
You aren't afraid
And you're tearing the walls away

I'm afraid to let you in
Its been so long
Its been so hard
Its so strange to feel this way

I built these walls in my defense
Once burned turns you shy
Twice burned turns you away
Three times burned...
Now all I can seem to do is run away

I built these walls so long ago
Fought so hard to keep them up
You came along not long ago
You tore them down without a second thought

My heart go wild
My breathe comes fast
My mind fights saying it will never last
My body aches from scars since past

I want to believe
I want to hope
I want it to not be all just another beautiful lie
The ruins around my feet leave me exposed and raw

I look at you with eyes full of hope, a body full of scars, and a heart full of holes
Everything I have, whatever is left is yours
I'll give all of my broken self to you and pray that you know what to do

Breathing Deep

My eyes close as the calm leaves me
Why does this have to happen to me?
Hands clenched by my side, I bow my head
Is it time to give in?
Is it time to give up?

To feel so weak
To feel so worn down and broken
To realize there maybe no way to win
To realize there maybe no way to move on

Not wanting to drown
Not wanting to feel
Not knowing if there is a way
Just knowing it will always be a struggle

But I just know that I'm not ready to give in yet
Not ready to give up
Not ready to end this way
I stiffen quickly as I stand tall

I have a choice
I can give in and let things boil
Give in body, mind and soul
Or I can fight back
Push back and give whatever I have left

I can't stand feeling weak
I will stand strong
No matter the scars or the bruises I collect along the way
I'll hold my head up high through all the pain
Hoping and knowing that somehow it will be better someday

I breathe deep and open my eyes
I breathe deep and slowly realize that what happens now is up to me
What I choose to do
What I choose to see
What I choose to learn
What I choose to acknowledge
What I choose to be

Breathing deep
Stand up tall
Look out fate we're in for a brawl

Thorn In My Side

Thorn in my side
driving me mad
driving me crazy
making me sad

Thorn in my side
needs to be free
needs to get out
far away from me

Thorn in my side
ripping me apart
while slowly killing me inside

Thorn in my side
slipping further and further
digging deeper everyday

Why is this thorn in my side here you may ask?
Its the product of losing my faith,
then losing my love,
then feeling no need to live

Thorn in my side
and no way to remove it

Thorn in my side
and no way to hide it

Dare Ya To

I dare ya to notice...
to notice im not there

I dare ya to care...
to care for me

I dare you to need....
need me if im not there

I dare ya to wish...
to wish i was there

I dare ya to miss..
miss me if im not near

I dare ya to whisper..
to whisper sweet things in my ear

I dare ya to listen..
to listen to what your heart says

I dare ya to yearn..
to yearn for my prescence

I dare ya to love...
to love me like i do you

I dare ya to give a damn..
to give a damn how i feel about you