Breathing Deep

My eyes close as the calm leaves me
Why does this have to happen to me?
Hands clenched by my side, I bow my head
Is it time to give in?
Is it time to give up?

To feel so weak
To feel so worn down and broken
To realize there maybe no way to win
To realize there maybe no way to move on

Not wanting to drown
Not wanting to feel
Not knowing if there is a way
Just knowing it will always be a struggle

But I just know that I'm not ready to give in yet
Not ready to give up
Not ready to end this way
I stiffen quickly as I stand tall

I have a choice
I can give in and let things boil
Give in body, mind and soul
Or I can fight back
Push back and give whatever I have left

I can't stand feeling weak
I will stand strong
No matter the scars or the bruises I collect along the way
I'll hold my head up high through all the pain
Hoping and knowing that somehow it will be better someday

I breathe deep and open my eyes
I breathe deep and slowly realize that what happens now is up to me
What I choose to do
What I choose to see
What I choose to learn
What I choose to acknowledge
What I choose to be

Breathing deep
Stand up tall
Look out fate we're in for a brawl