Flames

Tiny timbers up my toes
Eyes alight
Skin a glow

Flames running up my legs
Body tenses
Muscles ache

Tiny prickles up my spine
Fingers tighten
Lungs ache

Flames dancing along my face
Eyes shut
Sigh escapes

Tiny tingles up my side
Arms shake
Bodies rise

Flames erupt as bodies dance
Fingers trace where sweat began
Eyes tell the ecstacy
As bodies become body

Whispered names and promises
Tell me you love me, tell me again
As flames subside
Sleep sets in

Wishes

Wishing you could be here
and see what I see

Wishing you could be here
and feel what I feel

Wishing you could be here
and take the pain away

Wishing you could be here
and tell me everythings okay

Wishing you could be here
and hold me close

Wishing you could be here
and take us both to bed

Wishing you could be here
and make everyone else go away

Wishing you could be here yourself, in person
Instead of stuck in my heart and head

Numb

Staring at the floor
Holding on by a thread
I refuse to play your games anymore
Sitting numb on the floor

Leave me here to sit in silence
Go play your part, your staring role
Be the drama major and go do your scene
While I sit numb on the floor

Tears will fall, though none will sting quite like mine
Hearts will be broken, even if its only mine
Limbs are weak, will is almost gone
Sitting numb on the floor

I can't feel my heart
I've deadened my senses to hide
I don't want to see anymore of your drama tonight
While I sit here helpless and numb on the floor

Mirror shows what I've known all along
There's nothing left of who I used to be
You tore me up and left me here
Sitting numb on the floor

You go ahead and play your role
I'll fight this feeling
I'll fight back until the end, then
You will be the one sitting numb on the floor
Crying like the raven "Nevermore"

Lie Again

Tell me again
go ahead
hang around
tell it again
give you rope
all you need
you'll hang yourself
no help you'll need
lie again
dig your holes
dig your ditches
be so bold
go ahead
tell your tales
lie again
make me sick
tell it again
all that you do
say what you said
go ahead
tell your lies again
no one to save you
no one could
so go ahead
lie again

Drowning Again

Sinking deeper
Air won't come
Eyes wide open
Feel so cold

Body heavy
Feel so weak
Pushing hard
Fighting sleep

Phantom scars
Show so well
Won't go back there
Not again

Eyes cloud
Ears won't hear
Mouth won't work
Though the screams still there

Hands are shaking
Legs pulled close
Can't think straight
Feel so broken

And here I am
So stuck again
Here I go
Drowning again

Feeling Indescribable

Heart pounds
Hands shake
Choke up
Make a mistake

Stutter
Butterflies
All dizzy inside

Feeling so strange
Crazy
Insane

You smile
Heart skips
Insides do a flip

How do you do what you do to me?
Feel wanted
Feel so free

Lip trembles
Toes tap
Feel like such a sap

Eyes shine
Laughter bubbles
Loving how you make me feel

Wish that I could do the same
You are so wonderful
So magical
So inspirational

Breath catches
Spine tingles
Life changes
Has a meaning

Your amazing
Your so smart
And I can’t help
But give you my heart

Decisions

To look into my eyes
I’m sure you would see
How my past decisions
Still haunt me

I choose someone once
Someone I thought loved me
I found out the hard way that
It wasn’t meant to be

I thought I’d try again
This time with someone I knew better
Only to find out that I knew them too well
It didn’t feel right to me

Two decisions I have made
That my mind always replays
Assaulting my heart everyday
Two deep scars and scared as hell

Then I met an angel
I was scared but he didn’t push
He listened, He cared
He was always there with advice

Above all I got to be myself
He is sweet
He is kind
He gives a damn

I have yet to meet a better man
I’ll take a chance
I’ll be bold
I’ll try again and see how it goes

Someone I Can't Be

Staring into the darkness
Staring into your eyes
I've never felt so lonely
You want someone I just can't be

Your one of my best friends
Your like an older sibling to me
I could never see you as anything other
You want someone I just can't be

Holding a torch for me
Holding a hope that just can't be
I wish this was easier to explain
You want someone I just can't be

Saying you want me, and me alone
Saying you think of me as the only one
Makes me want to cry
You want someone I just can't be

It's true that I love you
Though it's not like you love me
To tell you this is killing me
You want someone I just can't be

I don't know what else to say
I can't explain how I feel enough
So, I won't say anything at all because
I won't be something or someone I just can't be